You never know what would have happened if... what if you had come to help your brother in arms quicker, declared your feelings, rather than keep them to yourself, if you had built your estate a little earlier... But you should not regret the past. Just don’t waste your time on disputes, grudges or sadness. Time waits for no man, but it does work for you, enabling you to gather experience, improve your skills or relax with your brothers in arms.